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So, my life has just fallen apart. I'm disabled with a bad spine, my house was foreclosed on, I have no income, my wife decided that she had enough and left me. I am currently staying with my sister and her children while I wait on the great state of North Carolina to decide if I am actually disabled or not (hint: I am). So I have troubles. I still smile though, Why? because it can always be worse. add to that it wont serve me to fall into depression now I just got over that in dealing with being disabled. Am I sad? yes, I thought that this one was the one, my one and only, I could see myself growing old with her, I love her. However, she is unfaithful, she had cheated on me once, I am fairly certain that she was and is cheating on me still. I have no proof, but a lot of circumstantial evidence. I am not going to make whole lot of hoopla about this now, for a major reason, my children. So I am focusing on getting my youngest son enrolled into school for the first time. He seems excited about it. I continue to try and work things out with my wife at the moment in trying to arrange visitation, as well as other aspects. She is not making it easy. Add to it all she refuses to give me her address, which I could honestly care less about, except that it would make life a little easier in delivering the children. I love how she claims that she's afraid that I will drop by unexpectedly, heh, I've never been a stalker, and frankly I don't care too. lets think about this, she left me, yes I would have loved us to stay together but I can't trust her, and she left, so I don't want to get back with her. I want to live a drama free life as much as possible. Anyway, I'll see about updating this occasionally to let the world know how I am doing.