Step one

First and foremost, this is not my first divorce, but it is my second, and definitely the longest relationship I've ever had (married for 9 years together for 10). And as angry as I want to be regarding the whole situation, my first thought is of my children. So I want to work everything out amicability, I mean it's not like I hate her.  I jsut hate her decision regarding this matter. I do still love her. However, I'm not about to lose my children. I firmly believe that they need their mother as much as they need me, except that for some odd reason, she doesn't want to be nice. The first things out of her mouth are always derogatory towards me, where did all this hatred and anger come from? What the hell has happened? I am so lost, So... I took my children and enrolled the oldest in school today. He shall now be attending the 2nd grade, tomorrow I need to go by the courthouse for some paper that would allow at least him to stay with me during school and it will cost me $150, money I don't have, but it's for them, they need structure, stability and it's all I can do to provide for them and make them happy. Look, people can be jerks when it comes down to children and child-support, but in the end it's the children who suffer, if you don't want to deal with that aspect and totally fuck up some childs life then keep your legs closed.